I want to accomplish stuff and in reality, I have done very little today. Now I’m sitting here crying. I’m homesick. I found a nature sounds radio station on the computer and have been listening to sounds of the tundra. It sounds like Vermont and the Adirondacks.
I’ve been absorbed in thinking about my life. I wonder what it is about “home”….why are we drawn back to familiar sounds, smells and places? Why is it so comforting to hear a hometown accent? Listening to the birds and wind has made me think about my time down south. People are usually friendly, but they are not my homeys. I am a stranger in a strange land.
I grew up loving the Adirondacks. I intended to live there someday in a log cabin, but went on a camping trip to Vermont and fell in love with that place. It was familiar, yet different. Now I want to go back to where my heart was years ago. I guess it’s another one of those pilgrimages I keep making. Is this full circle?
I have to say goodbye to my friends here. It’s bittersweet. A couple of weeks ago I had to say bye to a woman I really liked. We were in pretty much the same financial boat.
It’s tough being disabled and on the fringes of society. There are some nice folks along the path and some who see disability as some sort of proof that we are worth less to the world. Some battles get real old. I’m looking forward to embracing one of my earliest goals in life….to be an Adirondack hermit.
[...] The evening storm was twice as violent with 3x’s the rain. My street was briefly a swiftly flowing river. But almost immediately it was over and we were treated to this big rainbow over Plattsburgh. This pic is for Wendy. [...]
Do you really think you could be a hermit in your present state of health? I’m not being critical. You seem to be in a place where you will need assisted living. Help from family, friends, or the pros? Pray and listen. God will make a way for you. God Bless.
Wendy:
I can understand fully your desire for the familiarity of home. I am hopeful you will be able to return there and that you find it beautiful and enriching to your spirit and soul, be it in the Adirondacks or Vermont. However, please *do not* become so much of a hermit that you leave us journal/blog friends behind. You have helped us see, feel, and experience so much of value in a life of travel, adventure, and wanderlust.
So, wherever you may go, please keep your journal/blog.
PipeTobacco
http://frumpyprofessor.blogspot.com
please don’t ever let the people who say such cruel things about disabled people get you down. I know about this as I am disabled too and in all my life I’ve never seen such cruelty coming from people than what I see these days. You’re a beautiful person and your writings always give me hope. You are a very giving person and even when you’re very sick you give so much. I want to encourage you to keep blogging and let us know how you’re doing.
Hey Wendy – I discovered you blog through Adk Base Camp. Thanks for all the neat posts and allowing folks to follow your journey. Awesome story. Hope you’re doing well, and I hope you decide to come on back up to the Adks. I’m sort of near you, up by Paul Smith’s. Just wanted to say excellent blog and best wishes for it all. I’ll be sure to add you to my links list so I can come back often!
My daughter had a boyfriend a few years ago who went to Paul Smiths. I was glad to have him go there so we had an excuse to visit
Up the road a piece is a special fishing area with old outhouses and lakeside campsites for free. That was one of our favorite places to camp while visiting.