Loopy!
Ugh…the pain meds take away the bulk of the pain at the height of their effectiveness….but at a price. I can’t stop itching! I also feel like I swallowed a cannon ball if I eat anything.
Having altered consciousness does have its moments. I catch myself totally wrapped up in patterns or minute details. I might forget what I’m cooking while entranced with the bubbles in an English muffin or the nuances of color around the kitchen. I used to be deep into everything like that as a kid. Fascinating, but hard to do much…other than indulge the study of minutia. The rest of the world ceases to make noise or move when I am so focused.
While writing this I keep being distracted by the look of the sunflower seeds hanging in a pop bottle in the sun. I find myself staring at the bushes partly buried in snow and the dead grasses tangled in their bases. I’m continually tracing each blade or branch from source to tip. Ahhhhh….the important stuff…..
I ordered the shop lights and full spectrum bulbs for the seed starting shelves. Now I’m wrestling with whether to build a wooden shelf or buy a metal rack. I’d buy the rack in a flash if I had a way to get to Plattsburgh…otherwise the delivery charge is over $60 
I’m back in fibroid land. Lots of blood and clots and CRAMPS. Sooooooooooooo tired…..
Which is better?
I am in less pain now…but I feel all doped up. Itchy, too. I’ve never been a fan of pain pills.
The new prescription calls for 4 pills per day. I sure can tell when I need another! I was trying to talk to a woman who lives here and pretty soon I was clutching my chest more than talking. I’ve become a pitiful joke. Folks look at me, shake their heads and say I’m having a bad year…aren’t I? Nobody can fathom a body with one thing after another wrong. Yup…me, neither!
One good thing about being in less pain is that I can do more. I worked on odds and ends of paperwork and governmental red tape. I’ve been trying to get food stamps here for 5 months. Finally I called up a supervisor instead of the woman assigned to me. I told her about my medical stuff and my missing brain cells. I begged for help straightening it all out.
If my brain had been working better, I would have done this a long time ago. I was ASTOUNDED when the woman I talked to was extremely sympathetic, courteous and helpful! I was even more amazed when a third woman called to tell me was now assigned to help sort out the mess. It’s shocking to be treated well and have a government worker admit something was messed up at their end. Wow! I am very impressed so far. Now I hope good news comes of it 
Having a few extra working brain cells is very nice! I was also smart enough to call the oxygen company and ask for more o2 tanks. They will bring them next week. YES!
I’ve been trying to order a shelving unit online. That is a flop so far. The site has me signed up and confirmed my user name and password. Then when I enter those things, it tells me there is no such person or secret code. Sigh… Well, maybe that means I am supposed to wait a bit for some reason…
I need a shelf for seed starting. Then I need about 10 shoplights. I need a big bag of pro mix for seed starting and 5 more plastic planting trays. I can start the onions, shallots, chives and leeks the first week of March. That will pretty much wipe out this month’s money, so I REALLY hope I can get retroactive food stamps from when I first applied.
Y’all know I love gardening…but you have NO IDEA how excited I am to finally plant some seeds!!!! I have repeatedly told the maintenance man that planning my garden is what’s keeping me alive. He never balked at all about plowing me up a 50 x 50 foot garden spot
Could be worse
“When you find yourselves a little gloomy, look around you and find somebody
that is in a worse plight than yourself; go to him and find out what the
trouble is, then try to remove it with the wisdom which the Lord bestows upon
you; and the first thing you know, your gloom is gone, you feel light, the
Spirit of the Lord is upon you, and everything seems illuminated.”
Lorenzo Snow, General Conference, 6 April 1899
Oh, Oh
Got this email from my mother this morning…
Wendy……….On my way home, on this side of Tupper Lake, a deer ran into my car………smashed the front passenger side……….I wasn’t hurt, but was shaken up a bit…….. Liz came to pick me up and brought me home…..my car was taken to a garage in Potsdam…..I’m glad you missed the experience………. Love, Mom
Gee…when she was driving me home in the afternoon she said she had seen turkeys on the side of the road. I told her there were lots of deer, too….
Tender Mercies
“We should not underestimate or overlook the power of the Lord’s tender mercies. The simpleness, the sweetness, and the constancy of the tender mercies of the Lord will do much to fortify and protect us in the troubled times in which we do now and will yet live. When words cannot provide the solace we need or express the joy we feel, when it is simply futile to attempt to explain that which is unexplainable, when logic and reason cannot yield adequate understanding about the injustices and inequities of life, when mortal experience and evaluation are insufficient to produce a desired outcome, and when it seems that perhaps we are so totally alone, truly we are blessed by the tender mercies of the Lord and made mighty even unto the power of deliverance.”
| –David A. Bednar, “The Tender Mercies of the Lord“, May 2005 Ensign |
| 1 Nephi 1:20 |
The Lord Is My Light – #89, Hymn #89 |
Good thing my mother came to visit today
The National Weather Service In Burlington Has Issued A Wind Advisory For Wind Gusts To 50 Mph…For Northern New York…The Champlain Valley…And Western Slopes In The Green Mountains…Which Is In Effect From 4 AM To 7 PM EST Friday.
South To Southwest Winds Of 20 To 30 Mph With Gusts To 50 Mph Will Develop By Daybreak On Friday And Continue Into Friday Afternoon. The Strongest Winds Will Be Located Across The Exposed Higher Terrain Of The Northern Adirondack Mountains In New York…Western Slopes Of The Green Mountains In Vermont…And Across Portions Of The Champlain And Saint Lawrence Valleys. These Winds Will Diminish When The Rain Arrives Late Friday Afternoon.
Nice, huh?
Zeke and I heard a knock at our door and there was my mother! She brought me stuff she cleaned out of her kitchen. I got some glasses, utensils, some food, a bag of potting soil and a whole bunch of empty Smuckers jars Zeke got a Velveeta box full of dog bones.
I had taken a Vicodin just before she got there. Taking all the goodies out of their boxes and bags had me in tears at one point. Stupid sword through my chest! Then we went to town. It was nice to go in and shop for myself for a change! First we stopped at the Dollar Store. I got some planting containers and 10 pkgs of seeds
Next over to Aldi’s. I bought CHOCOLATE. I never remember to put a candy bar on my list for the aide to buy. Mmmmmmm….. Then my mother took me out to lunch at the #1 Chinese Restaurant in Saranac Lake. Nice little place with a BIG menu. I had the pork egg foo young combo platter. Zeke got all the stuff that missed my mouth.
After eating, the pain came back with a vengeance. I almost cried in the restaurant. Then my mother pulled a Vicodin out of her purse. I gladly accepted. Too bad it didn’t kick in until at least an hour later. Oh, well…I’m alive and breathing.
Wow! I am impressed I was able to go shopping and out to eat. I was in pain the whole time, but I did it!
I wish I could go…
Airfare Alert!
Syracuse to Orlando $125 RT
As of Thursday, February 26, 2009 7:33 AM EST
Ahhhh…what sweet torture to get the cheap airfare emails! I’d love to ditch the oxygen tanks and tubing, the pain, the cold and the cabin fever and go get warm and have fun Too bad most of my Lakeland friends don’t have cars! If I had a way to get around, I’d be there in a heart beat
